She touches the erect penis through the fabric, as if judging its shape and size. A slip. What enters is a warm, fine-textured, pleasantly thin female finger… She touches ‘me’ directly. Pulling down the panties is, in a sexual situation, a chance for a man to open up as a man. If that is not allowed, the shame never disappears. Kept being toyed with, and in the end that sticky white stuff oozed out. But why is it that my heart is so fulfilled like this… (Excerpt from “Awakening to Panties-Inside Handjob,” Chapter 2)
